Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Goodbye My Friend

I am writing with a heavy heart today, as it saddens me to share the news with all of my readers that my dear friend Jennifer who has been battling breast cancer has passed away.  I have sat here now for hours, trying to process everything in my mind. As the minutes pass by, it doesn't get any easier and it doesn't get any easier to understand. Women our age aren't supposed to get breast cancer. We are young. And she was too young to have had to go through what she went through.

When I think about Jennifer today, I have 20+ years worth of memories that flood my mind. Good days of us laughing and having fun. I take comfort in knowing that her pain has ended but it doesn't make it any better. Knowing that I can't call her or text her when I have something funny to tell her.....knowing I will never hear her beautiful voice sing again. It is just too hard to even imagine. My heart breaks for her family. I cannot even fathom how they must feel.

When I saw her last weekend, she didn't look like she was on the brink of death. She was still full of life, just like the Jenn that I have always known and loved. She laughed, we shared old stories. It was just like when we were kids again. And now I can't help but think if I had only known that her time to leave us was so close, I would have told her how much her friendship has meant to me over the past 20 years.  Her Mom's words from last weekend still echo in my mind about not sweating the small stuff with your kids and cherishing every moment you have with them. It made me think. There are a lot of relationships in my life that need mended. A lot of grudges that need to be released.

I ask that you keep her family in your prayers. She leaves behind really great parents, a husband, a brother, a beautiful baby boy and countless friends.  

Forever in my heart. I will love and miss you Jenn. And I still believe in Miracles.




9 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear of your loss. I am sure your friend knows that you loved her like a sister, based on how you speak of your friendship. I will pray for your comfort and for her family that she has left behind.

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  2. So, so sad. And I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll be sending loads of prayers to her family.

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  3. I am so sorry to hear this. My heart goes out to you and Jennifer's family. I will continue to keep you all in my prayers as you grieve for your loss and begin to heal.

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  4. So sorry that she left. I really wish life was easier!

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  5. I'm sorry! I will keep you and Jennifer's family in my prayers!

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  6. I'm so sorry to hear about your friend - I'll be praying, too.

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  7. I am so sorry for the loss of your friend. I especially feel for you right now as my grandmother passed away this Monday so I know the same feelings of loss at this particular time. I am so glad you have those last memories of her full of life to treasure!

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  8. I am so so sorry for the loss of your friend. I will keep her family as well as you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  9. My Pastor always says that its not goodbye, just that we will see you later. So sorry about the loss of your friend, and yes she is not in pain any more, yes she shall be missed here on earth, how awesome it is though that she is seeing JESUS face to face right now dancing with HIM and having the time of her life. It does hurt us here on earth when someone we LOve goes before us (HOME) just wanting for my turn so that I can see all my Love ones who has gone before me, and trying my best to get those left here on earth ready so that we don't have to say goodbye, but SEE YOU LATER. God Bless you and the family of Jenn. Love to all of you and the Peace of The Lord surround you all Love Patricia Hanks KY

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