I had every intention of getting on my computer tonight and posting a couple of giveaways that I have been meaning to get posted but to be honest, I really just have a heavy heart tonight and just feel like venting. Do you, as a Mom, ever feel completely and totally overwhelmed? I try to not let things bother me and this is the way that I have always been. I have always been the "tough guy" so to speak, you know, the strong one. I have always been able to just let things roll off my back and not give them a second thought but I realized today that sometimes that isn't a possibility. The truth is, I try to be Super Mom. Super Wife. Super Citizen. I try to do everything right in my life. I try to make the best of every situation. I try to keep things together, and pretend like everything is o.k. but sometimes they just aren't o.k. Sometimes I can't be Super Mom. There aren't enough hours in the day for me to do everything that needs to be done. I can't give all 4 of my kids equal amounts of attention and affection, no matter how hard I try. And it seems like no matter what I do, it's just never good enough. And sometimes, just sometimes I wish that I didn't feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.
I was browsing through some of my favorite blogs today and blog after blog after blog I just kept seeing what appeared to be perfect family after perfect family. I was reminded one day of when one of my readers messaged me and told me how jealous she was of me because I had the perfect family. And the truth is, my family is not perfect. We are far from perfect. We have the same problems that every other family potentially faces. We have spoiled rotten kids who can be complete brats. My house often looks like a tornado has gone through it, no matter how many hours I spend cleaning. I have panic attacks. My husband and I don't always get along and we rarely agree. Sometimes I just want to hide away because I don't know what to do next. Sometimes I look at my life and feel like I have done nothing that I had planned to do. It's hard to be a Mom. I would never let anybody downgrade my job as a Mother. It is one of the most terrifying yet rewarding jobs I will ever have. Sometimes I just don't know where the strength is going to come from to get through the next day but somehow it always comes. And we always find a way. And life continues on.
Where does your strength come from when you find yourself overwhelmed? Do you ever find yourself in situations that look so impossible yet you still find a way to muddle through and make it work?